I guess just letting out some aggravation and despair from being so distraught by frustrating people that most of us probably allow in our lives that just don't belong there...

Written several whiles ago... (November 5th or 8th, 2006)

Sometimes it's best for me not to comment at all...sometimes no answer is the best kind of response I can give....we all need things at different moments. Need to hear things that at that moment it applies and it will hit us harder; we won't understand something until we open our eyes to what is truly there to be seen. Can you see me? Not many can, even though I've let too many in. People who would be better without me now...they are better, further advanced now that they have met me, been with me, felt me, heard me, ...move on, because it's time for me to go. I wish I could do it as easily as I once was able to.

I'm sorry I'm always in your life...
Hurt me no more...
I'm sorry I'm always there even when your not
I'm sorry I'm always the friend you need but your never there for me
I'm sorry that you say that I'm always welcome but when asked to be there, you yell at me for wanting someone to care
I'm sorry that you think my being human is a sign of weakness and dependence
I'm sorry that you don't know the difference of how you treat me versus how you really treat others
I'm sorry that you chose to lie to me so many times
I'm sorry that I'm not dumb enough to fall for your crap
I'm sorry that I will always care so damn much
I'm sorry that I will always be there even when you wound me so...
I'm sorry that my tears and cries mean nothing but an inconvenience to you
I'm sorry that you rarely listen to what I'm really saying
I'm sorry that you always/typically hear the worst even when the best is being said
I'm sorry that you are full of crap when the opposite is needed
I'm sorry that my loyalty bothers you so much
I'm sorry that I will always be the one that could never be got
I'm sorry that you think I'm too good for you
I'm sorry that you put yourself down for not meeting the standards that you put up for yourself when it comes to how you should be with me and provide for me
I'm sorry that you make things so hard on yourself
I'm sorry that you rarely ever hear me when I say that it is okay
I'm sorry that being near me, even though brings so much much joy also brings so much pain
I'm sorry that things have gone on so long
I'm sorry that I didn't leave you before you moved on
I'm sorry that I bring such evil out of you
I'm sorry that I'll never be...anything to you

I'm sorry that you think you see things that are not true
For in the future it is not you
We know that we will never be,
Which is just fine by you and me;

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Moving past the past is a far better thing for us to do.
It will be a greater thing we do than if we were to stand still and let it all conquer us. Move forward, be strong and grab life by the horns/balls because the next asshole won't be so kind.
Wouldn't you rather be the one doing the ass-kicking since you do it so much better. It might as well be you getting further ahead for once and hopefully always!